As a child, I always wanted to be Batman, brave and bold. But as I face reality, I wish for different superpowers. I once read an article in a magazine which talked about how one's dreams and wishes are based on the choices they make in life.
These days I think about myself as a master of time, owning the ability to change and turn time at will. As I said before, it probably reflects on the fact that I wished that I had done things differently in the past and want to change the outcome of my actions. I keep replaying things in my head, from words I said an hour back, to things I did in the 9th grade.
I feel alone. It's not that I don't have friends, I do. I don't think they care about me at all. I wish I was more enthusiastic, and not so controlling. It has probably led to me writing about it. I don't get why I behave the way I do. Its like a conflict. I see posts about my friends hanging out at expensive joints while here my mum and dad warn me from spending too much cash on food while going to tuitions. The only thing stable in my life right now seems to be my gym routine and my cat. Unfortunately for the cat, he cant leave me. Nothing impresses people anymore. its all about popularity these days.
These days I think about myself as a master of time, owning the ability to change and turn time at will. As I said before, it probably reflects on the fact that I wished that I had done things differently in the past and want to change the outcome of my actions. I keep replaying things in my head, from words I said an hour back, to things I did in the 9th grade.
I feel alone. It's not that I don't have friends, I do. I don't think they care about me at all. I wish I was more enthusiastic, and not so controlling. It has probably led to me writing about it. I don't get why I behave the way I do. Its like a conflict. I see posts about my friends hanging out at expensive joints while here my mum and dad warn me from spending too much cash on food while going to tuitions. The only thing stable in my life right now seems to be my gym routine and my cat. Unfortunately for the cat, he cant leave me. Nothing impresses people anymore. its all about popularity these days.
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