So, I realized that I have been using 'so' usually every time that I start a sentence, I will try my best to control myself.
So, I have gone back to prison now, essentially. My father left for Dubai today, I think. Now I am back to sleeping without a fan over my head because ''I might get ill'', or get my ear chewed out for not eating much, then get my other ear chewed out for not working out. The same every morning speech starting with ''Why don't you get up early, didn't your parents teach you any manners....'' to ''Learn from your cousin, he is so well behaved and wakes up early everyday''. I guess she's a hardened veteran now for these type of things. And also, I can't really say anything since I have to save up on any reputation I have left in my family. I can't tell her that my cousin spends his nights talking to girls, or that he destroys everything he touches, or that he gives no meaning to his surroundings, doesn't understand the worth of any item he owns and appreciates the various opportunities he's handed everyday. I can't wait for the day I can spill the beans on him. And no, this isn't a biased opinion due to envy or hatred. It's pure fact. Fact, based on observations and mainly overhearing his mom talking about him to my mother and her mother. Honestly, I have never met a person who relishes in her son's absence. I don't blame her. I don't blame him as well for the way he turned out to be. He wears obnoxiousness like a crown, always trying to get the better of his peers or elders.
If I really think about it from his perspective, maybe he uses that as a mechanism. He wants to be loved, that's clearly understood from the way he involves or gets involved into all sorts of things. But the other thing he does is that after bringing a person closes to him, at the slightest error they are pushed away. His parents are very controlling, every suggestion is met with just the staunchest of replies, every time. I know I wouldn't be able to bear it for 16 years. By that basis, mine are just awesome.
I think I had an agenda when I started this blog, I don't remember it anymore. The mangoes probably got to me. That's it for the day I guess.
If I really think about it from his perspective, maybe he uses that as a mechanism. He wants to be loved, that's clearly understood from the way he involves or gets involved into all sorts of things. But the other thing he does is that after bringing a person closes to him, at the slightest error they are pushed away. His parents are very controlling, every suggestion is met with just the staunchest of replies, every time. I know I wouldn't be able to bear it for 16 years. By that basis, mine are just awesome.
I think I had an agenda when I started this blog, I don't remember it anymore. The mangoes probably got to me. That's it for the day I guess.
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