Its not that I am not consistent. I am just not interesting enough to have anything to report or write about currently. I played tennis today, for the first time in a long time. I want to feel that way again. That never-ending rush of energy. Maybe my gym routine has something to do with it, maybe its an attempt at impressing that new American girl I met. I am so dry it hurts these days. I am so dry I can't get any sleep, my thoughts keep invading the ocean waves I have playing on repeat on my phone. I really need to get a grip. I need to think about the right things. How can I rid my mind of all this nonsense? The nonsense I am pertaining to, its a girl. It's boring how obvious it is. I don't want to keep up with all the lies I keep hearing, leaving the mouths of them both, oblivious of the fact that I get my information from other sources and can see through their pretense. I am probably not worth being told the truth to. What a horrible realization to have.
What used to be the thoughts of a gloomy introvert who wrote about himself and his crazy thoughts because he couldn't express them for shit in front of anyone is now about nothing.